TEST DRIVE MEME #10

[sailmods]

a. that's where we both belong

[you wake up.

it doesn't matter where you were before. going to bed? dying? opening the door to face a great evil? same result. you wake up in a soft bed with starched sheets in a cool, darkened room, sunlight peeking out from behind thick curtains. maybe you're alone; maybe you aren't. maybe you immediately notice the folded paper on the bedside table near your head. if you don't, you better fix that real quick: you won't be able to even open the door before you read it.

the note itself is written in a neat hand on white card stock; there is a stylized logo of a ship with the words SERENA ETERNA printed underneath. the note reads as follows:

Dear Passenger(s),

As your cruise director, it is my great honor to welcome you aboard the Serena Eterna, your destination for fun and adventure! We know you could have chosen any cruise line for your vacation, and we're very grateful you chose ours! On behalf of the Captain, I would like to assure each and every passenger that will we do whatever it takes to fulfill all your needs and desires during your journey with us.

At your earliest possible convenience, please attend the mandatory lifeboat drill by the end of the day. I'm sure everyone is very eager to get started on all the fun and sun, but safety always comes first! You can find your life jacket in your cabin's closet; carry it to your assigned muster station on deck one, where I will take you through the drill. If you can't find me in the crowd, just look for the gal with the winning smile!

See You Real Soon!

Sincerely,
Gal Friday

you walk to deck one. you have no other choice: every time you try to step in a direction some unseen being considers "not towards deck one," you find your legs no longer move, staying stock still, frozen. whether compelled quickly by curiosity, or delayed by pure stubbornness, the result is the same, and you are left milling around with other similarly curious or stubborn people.

you see someone in uniform near the front of the crowd. she seems to be a gal, but is missing the winning smile, along with most of her other features. she seems to see you, though, rushing to your side and placing a lei around your neck with great formality. a voice, cheery but artificial, sees to come from nowhere and everywhere.]

Welcome aboard! I'm so happy you could join us!

[you touch the lei. rooster feathers, lotus seeds, and a carved circle of something white and hard, linked onto a silk string.

after the drill is completed, you are seemingly free to go. or, well, your legs work, now. and maybe that's as good as it's gonna get.]

b. and there's plenty of that down by the sea

[it’s strange to think about, isn’t it? how all those new passengers, the ones grumbling or shouting their way through the forced muster drill, have absolutely no idea what happened just last month. no idea about the labyrinth. no concept of why anyone around them would be a bit more hesitant around shadows.

they’ll learn.

sometimes a shadow is darker than it’s supposed to be. very rarely does anything come of that; just a vague sense that someone is watching you, and little more. sometimes, though, the shadows move. sometimes they grab at your ankles as you walk. sometimes they give you a shove as you go down the stairs. sometimes they pull your hair, or pinch your arm.

sometimes you feel something sharp cut into your lower leg.

that’s not a shadow, though. that’s a fiddler crab. you see the crab, sometimes. the cut isn’t from its claws, which don’t look very intimating; it’s not a very large crab. the cut is from the large kitchen knife crudely taped onto its back. it’s probably fine. it's not chasing you. there isn't evil in its heart. probably.]

c. think I'll go back to the Keys

[one day, in the atrium, two pedestals suddenly appear. on each is a large button: one green, and one blue. pressing the blue button gives you a little treat, popping out of thin air next to you. pressing the green button sends a small electric shock through your body. weird, but, hey, pretty avoidable, right?

except, it seems to be spreading. to every other button on board.

in the elevator. on the soda machine. the arcade. your phone. the bell on Friday’s desk.]

Comments

[blindwatchersees]

"Ah, yes. The guilt one feels over living their day-to-day life comfortably because someone else has it worse than them. The guilt of being fed and alive because somewhere out there, someone else is going without. The guilt of surviving and maybe even thriving where the wind has led you and let you take root, because someone else is somewhere less advantageous. It's very commonplace, you know, too commonplace, yet at the same time maybe not commonplace enough." He says this all calmly, not breaking his gaze away from Johnny.

"It's a bit of a tricky predicament, isn't it? Too much guilt, and you start depriving yourself, but too little causes you to lose touch. And of course, there's the little issue of you being so intelligent, Mr. Summer. You think about things. You can't help but think about things, and so the wheels in your head keep turning, turning, turning, faster and faster and faster, not giving you a moment to breathe. You hate yourself for what you have now, in part because you know someone out there is suffering for it, and in part because you know what your old self would have given to have what you have now- really, what your old self gave to earn a fraction of what you have now. One has to wonder if you'd even be able to sleep at night, without a lover's embrace."

Sheogorath takes another sip of his drink, his attention shifting. A shimmer of gold creeps back into his eyes.

"Strange how we're so grounded by others. One moment, we're an island unto ourselves, bracing for the storm, and the next we're sheltering in the arms of someone warm and present and arguably real. Why, I'm a god, and even I need a moment with my Husband every now and again. Such a sweet, empathetic, unremarkable, terribly mortal man, he is. And it's wonderful. Think about it, a god, a fundamental aspect of the Aurbis itself, reassured by a loving physician who is one step removed from being absolutely nothing! Isn't that absurd? Isn't that mad? Isn't that beautiful?"

[businessorlibation]

"One of my husbands is a physician as well. The other? A physicist. There is a beauty in being with someone who knows you down to your components. And knowing them to their core in turn, in ways no science has answers for."

He smiles softly, choosing to focus on the soft, simple side of things first, rather than letting himself get into...well. How right the Daedric Prince is about hating himself for being happy when others suffer.

[blindwatchersees]

"Physicians make for delightful husbands! I've never married a physicist, not sure I'd want to. They're too... orderly. Always have to have an equation for understanding this, and that, and the other thing. Though perhaps... yes, I get the feeling that your husband is the fun sort of physicist. You should introduce me! Well, assuming we're not already acquainted, that is!"

[businessorlibation]

"You might just be. He's been through a lot, and has a bad habit of breaking what some consider laws of physics. He's about as orderly as what you get when you break a glass jar of marbles; the spheres are intact, but scattered. I love seeing him bounce from thought to thought."

He is deeply in love, but also deeply aware of the man he's married.

"Watson, meanwhile, was an army doctor, and has this beautiful awareness of what a body, a mind, a soul can endure. Fiercely protective and fiercely caring. He has been through hells, has wounds from his time of service, has nightmares still, sometimes. But he cannot stop being the man of action. He shines."

Okay, both men he married.

[blindwatchersees]

Oh, looks like the current mindset is "waxing poetic about husbands."

"Eil is loyal to a fault. He's never had much reverence for the gods, and for that I applaud him! They rarely do anyone any good, and he's always been of a mind to leave the gods alone and hope they leave him be in turn. So it's sort of funny that we ended up together. I can't say I'm the same man he married, but that doesn't change the fact for him that he made a vow, and he takes those very, very seriously. He's a caring man, a caring physician; he doesn't put limits on what he believes can be treated and made livable, and he'd give a patient his own blood if he thought it would serve as an effective medicine for them. In fact, it has in the past."

[businessorlibation]

"Blood transfusions are a thing in my world. I know very little about them, but I remember seeing an article about the Academy of Sciences innovating matching donor blood with patients. That said, usually it's not doctors donating directly to their patients--that sounds a little mad."

He smiles over that last sentence.

[blindwatchersees]

The Madgod laughs warmly, in a voice made of songs about dancing in the rain.

"Oh, he's wonderfully mad. Do you know, he wasn't just donating his blood to anyone. He was using it to treat vampirism. Vampirism! And you know what, it worked wonders. Didn't cure the poor lad, of course, but it helped him keep his cover and not lapse into a bestial state like old Molag's spawn so often do. Eil's got such a gentle heart. A tender heart. Very, very tender."