5 Things to 5 People Meme

[treadwater]

FIVE THINGS



The Rules:
1. Post with your characters name/canon and write 5 IC things about/to 5 peeps, don't say who they are for!
1.5. If you have more people to write things to, feel free.
2. Go around and yell at/talk with/interrogate other peeps.
3. Potentially guess that jerk is talking about you, wtf.
4. Profit???

Comments

[wimdy]

... Yes, I did all of that. You're not wrong, I did leave you twice, and then I chose to be with Mizuki.

If I did anything else but choose you every single time, be with you every moment, make you the firstmost priority... I wonder if those would be the paths that would make you happy with me. And that if I did anything else, it'd be wrong, and you'd be hurt. I suppose I can't promise that's something I would do.

[opheliac]

... Yeah, I figured. Which blows 'cuz you've always been first for me. Even now. You and Ekko are neck and neck of level in importance to me. And at the time I just... wish I was that with you. I know you're gonna say I'm your first friend on this ship and blahblahblah.

But between Mizuki and me? I always felt less. Like he was always better in your eyes or I'm an afterthought. That after whatever gross shit you do with him then you come to me. And I was just... sick of being second or last. I've been that since I was a kid, y'know?

And it didn't really help when you made it seem like being with me was just so bad. I... I know I'm a curse and all but... am I really that terrible to be around? Would being with me be the worst thing ever to you? (...) — You were just so sure we wouldn't work out or it'll just blow up in our faces when... you didn't even let me shoot my shot, yet. How would you know the outcome if we didn't at least... try a lil'?

(she exhales out a sigh while combing her fingers through her bangs. now all the buried frustrations are bubbling up in the surface.)

If we, I dunno, did some sorta practice period or somethin'. We give it a go and then you give him a go. And if you still decided after that to be with him, at least I'd be satisfied knowing you gave me a chance. That I took the shot and missed. Then I wouldn't be... so angry about the whole thing.

[wimdy]

Jinx, I don't like to think of anyone as 'better' than another person. That's just not the kind of person I am. I wish that you could possibly understand that about me, that I simply don't want to believe that of others. After everything we've been through together, everything we've talked about or done, all that I've given you and you think that I don't like being around you... maybe the only other thing I could do really is to put you first above everything else and that would please you. But there's nobody like that for me, not even Mizuki... [ there's nobody alive, anyway. there's only one thing or person he'd ever completely dedicate himself to. ]

But I don't know what to say, I suppose this is the first time two people were interested in me, I didn't know how to handle it. So I did poorly with it. I was interested in you, maybe I still am, but you have Ekko now... you shouldn't rely on me or need my attention, you know.

[opheliac]

So what if I have Ekko? I still... I still need you. I don't feel right if I don't have you with me, somehow. I need... to have your attention in order to be okay. I've already lost so much. — And I can't handle losin' anything else, anymore.

I think I'll finally break if I lose just one more person in my life.