[ He grins faintly, self-conscious still, but it's a milestone all the same. But she hugs him again and he returns it, tighter this time. Because she asked the question and he always has a harder time lying to her than to the rest of them. ]
After you-- I went back to the house. And I didn't mean to, I tried to burn the whole damn thing down, but everything got...twisted around. I think I... I don't even know, for all I know it was drain cleaner because I don't even remember stopping to get any, but I think I relapsed? And I... I didn't mean to, that fucking house...
[ He doesn't want to say them, fill in the rest of the gaps. Overdose. Death. All the things they all worried about every time he bailed, because it feels like failure, even if it wasn't really him this time. Wasn't his choice. ]
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[ He grins faintly, self-conscious still, but it's a milestone all the same. But she hugs him again and he returns it, tighter this time. Because she asked the question and he always has a harder time lying to her than to the rest of them. ]
After you-- I went back to the house. And I didn't mean to, I tried to burn the whole damn thing down, but everything got...twisted around. I think I... I don't even know, for all I know it was drain cleaner because I don't even remember stopping to get any, but I think I relapsed? And I... I didn't mean to, that fucking house...
[ He doesn't want to say them, fill in the rest of the gaps. Overdose. Death. All the things they all worried about every time he bailed, because it feels like failure, even if it wasn't really him this time. Wasn't his choice. ]
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, I tried so hard.