(what in the world is she talking about? of course she wants to talk to her again. for three months, it's just been her on this boat and no one else she knew. and at first, she thought maybe it was a blessing in disguise -- to forget everything happening in zaun, piltover, them, to just start anew and make this her second shot in life. and in the beginning, it started off that way. she was gaining friends little by little and her world was slowly becoming colorful and beautiful again. even with pirate jenny storming in (literally), insulting her and even haunting her to this day, jinx still managed to have support through it.
but it was when she hosted her party when the colors for her started to fade. she experienced, well, not her first boy crush -- a second one but her very first rejection; her first heartbreak. she didn't know how to handle it or deal with it. she always hoped vi would be there when it came to those things but...she wasn't there. jinx, luckily, had a few that helped her through it but often times, she was left alone to cry. then the battle royale fiasco happened -- she killed someone that day and even now, she is proud of it. but when she was going up against lucy, how she injured jinx so horribly to where she couldn't even crawl for safety -- she decided to just...off herself with her own explosive.
jinx always imagined her death being that way; alone with no one. but when that reality hit her of it actually happening, she thought of fio, venti, silco, and vi then cried as she pulled the pin. when she woke the next day, her world was just dark after that. she roamed around for hours like the dead and even attempted to just burn the entire ship down -- didn't work, of course. fio, whom was on the boat watching the battle royale on the TV screens, she saw jinx crackling in madness and in full smiles while she killed. and she distanted herself from her and then at the same time, venti made a decison to be with mizuki instead of her. )
(everything had been crushing for her and she was losing so much hope to the point she even considered the captain's offer to get rid of her curse. if she let him feed off of her jinx, she will die permanently and she was ready to be fine with that. rin stopped her from doing so, she still isn't sure why a cyborg wanted her to reconsider and claimed it'll miss her if she were gone but. then ekko showed up out of nowhere and then the day after, instantly she got thrown back to zaun. and so much happened back home that she is still trying to figure out what's what. vi left her for caityln again on the bridge and then being brought to singed as an attempt to save her life.
the procedure was so painful -- all she can remember was screaming and begging it all to just stop. and when she opened her eyes again, here she was once more on this stupid boat. so when vi asks her if she is hurt, jinx can't control herself as her pink tears stream rapidly down her cheeks.)
"Hurt"...? All I've been feeling is hurt.
(sobbing, she throws herself into vi's arms and clings into an embrace desperately.)
cw: death and suicide thoughts cause that's fun yaaaay...
but it was when she hosted her party when the colors for her started to fade. she experienced, well, not her first boy crush -- a second one but her very first rejection; her first heartbreak. she didn't know how to handle it or deal with it. she always hoped vi would be there when it came to those things but...she wasn't there. jinx, luckily, had a few that helped her through it but often times, she was left alone to cry. then the battle royale fiasco happened -- she killed someone that day and even now, she is proud of it. but when she was going up against lucy, how she injured jinx so horribly to where she couldn't even crawl for safety -- she decided to just...off herself with her own explosive.
jinx always imagined her death being that way; alone with no one. but when that reality hit her of it actually happening, she thought of fio, venti, silco, and vi then cried as she pulled the pin. when she woke the next day, her world was just dark after that. she roamed around for hours like the dead and even attempted to just burn the entire ship down -- didn't work, of course. fio, whom was on the boat watching the battle royale on the TV screens, she saw jinx crackling in madness and in full smiles while she killed. and she distanted herself from her and then at the same time, venti made a decison to be with mizuki instead of her. )
(everything had been crushing for her and she was losing so much hope to the point she even considered the captain's offer to get rid of her curse. if she let him feed off of her jinx, she will die permanently and she was ready to be fine with that. rin stopped her from doing so, she still isn't sure why a cyborg wanted her to reconsider and claimed it'll miss her if she were gone but. then ekko showed up out of nowhere and then the day after, instantly she got thrown back to zaun. and so much happened back home that she is still trying to figure out what's what. vi left her for caityln again on the bridge and then being brought to singed as an attempt to save her life.
the procedure was so painful -- all she can remember was screaming and begging it all to just stop. and when she opened her eyes again, here she was once more on this stupid boat. so when vi asks her if she is hurt, jinx can't control herself as her pink tears stream rapidly down her cheeks.)
"Hurt"...? All I've been feeling is hurt.
(sobbing, she throws herself into vi's arms and clings into an embrace desperately.)
Why...Why won't it all just stop?