“LITERALLY ANYWHERE IS BETTER THAN THIS!” Karkat snaps back at him. He’s actually mad. Not like, whiney fake mad like usual. Karkat has mastered the art of seeming more angry than he actually is, so the fact that the feelings really are hitting him so hard this time is a problem. He seriously can’t believe the way Eridan has managed to twist this whole conversation. It’s like they’re in two completely different planes of reality.
He walks over to the deck and looks out at the water. If he does jump, he won’t be able to get back on the ship, and there doesn’t look like there’s anything out there for miles. If he drowns, will he just wake back up on the meteor? Or will he be actually dead? If he really is a doomed version of himself that’s split off from the main timeline like Eridan said, then isn’t staying alive just prolonging the inevitable? Does he really want to be trapped in some pointless meandering existence, filled with burning rage at a former friend who refuses to take any sort of responsibility for how bad he messed up?
He wants to cry. He can feel tears at the back of his eyes. He can’t cry. Eridan will see the color, and he is NOT ready for THAT conversation. Instead he just nervously gnaws at his knuckle while gazing out at the water.
Tw: suicidal ideation
He walks over to the deck and looks out at the water. If he does jump, he won’t be able to get back on the ship, and there doesn’t look like there’s anything out there for miles. If he drowns, will he just wake back up on the meteor? Or will he be actually dead? If he really is a doomed version of himself that’s split off from the main timeline like Eridan said, then isn’t staying alive just prolonging the inevitable? Does he really want to be trapped in some pointless meandering existence, filled with burning rage at a former friend who refuses to take any sort of responsibility for how bad he messed up?
He wants to cry. He can feel tears at the back of his eyes. He can’t cry. Eridan will see the color, and he is NOT ready for THAT conversation. Instead he just nervously gnaws at his knuckle while gazing out at the water.