Eddie nods along with her as Chrissy explains what she remembers happening. Based on what he heard from Max, that sounds like what she had experienced while she was at the cemetery. It just saddens him, that she had to deal with that, alone. That she had to be the first so that they could eventually piece everything together. It's not fair.
"I keep playing it back in my head, you know? If I could have done anything differently, would it have mattered?" Eddie rambles, rubbing at the bridge of his nose with his fingers. "Harrington and the others, they say it wouldn't have mattered, you were marked, but I can't help it." And then, his voice goes quiet, almost a whisper, "I just wish I could have woken you up."
He swallows slowly as he looks down at his stomach, which has since been bandaged. Suddenly it's like he's back there, in the Upside Down, facing down the bats all over again. He remembers the feeling of rage built up inside of him that overpowered his fear. Make him pay, he had said to Steve. And maybe a little part of Eddie wanted to help, instead of running, always running.
"I didn't get cursed, no. But I remember dying. We were trying to --" make him pay "-- kill him, once and for all. I was just supposed to be distraction, but, well." He can't even look at Chrissy, because he feels like he fucked up everything. He couldn't save Chrissy, he couldn't keep the bats distracted long enough, it's his fault, all his fault. "I guess I screwed that up, huh."
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"I keep playing it back in my head, you know? If I could have done anything differently, would it have mattered?" Eddie rambles, rubbing at the bridge of his nose with his fingers. "Harrington and the others, they say it wouldn't have mattered, you were marked, but I can't help it." And then, his voice goes quiet, almost a whisper, "I just wish I could have woken you up."
He swallows slowly as he looks down at his stomach, which has since been bandaged. Suddenly it's like he's back there, in the Upside Down, facing down the bats all over again. He remembers the feeling of rage built up inside of him that overpowered his fear. Make him pay, he had said to Steve. And maybe a little part of Eddie wanted to help, instead of running, always running.
"I didn't get cursed, no. But I remember dying. We were trying to --" make him pay "-- kill him, once and for all. I was just supposed to be distraction, but, well." He can't even look at Chrissy, because he feels like he fucked up everything. He couldn't save Chrissy, he couldn't keep the bats distracted long enough, it's his fault, all his fault. "I guess I screwed that up, huh."