[He hadn't really meant to say that last part out loud, but Eddie definitely blames himself for how things happened. He understands, logically, that it's not actually his fault but it's still impossible to not feel guilty.
If he hadn't been so preoccupied with string to sell her drugs- with how fucking nice it felt to just sit and have a conversation with someone who seemed like she enjoyed being around him- maybe he could have noticed that something was wrong. Now, after the fact, it's incredibly easy to beat himself up over it.
She's so quick to insist that he's blameless, though, and that makes his heart hurt. Eddie blinks and lifts his head to look at her again when she touches him.]
Don't do that.
[And sure, telling her not to blame herself is incredibly hypocritical as he's standing here blaming himself, but really, he's just finding it hard to believe that it was her fault either.]
I'm sorry you were suffering. And I'm sorry I didn't see it.
[He wants to ask now, the way he should have before, but it feels like it's too late for that. It's probably none of his business, and maybe it would be too painful for her to talk about even now. The shift in subject is a welcome one, even if he imagines they'll swing back to the elephant in the room eventually.]
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If he hadn't been so preoccupied with string to sell her drugs- with how fucking nice it felt to just sit and have a conversation with someone who seemed like she enjoyed being around him- maybe he could have noticed that something was wrong. Now, after the fact, it's incredibly easy to beat himself up over it.
She's so quick to insist that he's blameless, though, and that makes his heart hurt. Eddie blinks and lifts his head to look at her again when she touches him.]
Don't do that.
[And sure, telling her not to blame herself is incredibly hypocritical as he's standing here blaming himself, but really, he's just finding it hard to believe that it was her fault either.]
I'm sorry you were suffering. And I'm sorry I didn't see it.
[He wants to ask now, the way he should have before, but it feels like it's too late for that. It's probably none of his business, and maybe it would be too painful for her to talk about even now. The shift in subject is a welcome one, even if he imagines they'll swing back to the elephant in the room eventually.]